i visited 2 sweet little bunnies at the humane society lately and they are friends and they love eachother and there is a note requesting that they be adopted together because they love eachother so much. i checked on them on the website today and someone adopted one of them and not the other. so sad!!
i dont know how to put the picture of them together on here but go look at on www.ahshc.org and then click animal list and then click rabbits and their picture is with the profile for the bunny named jack. poor guys.

I'M 99 PROOF. HOW DRUNK ARE YOU?

huh?

i think its really time to say goodbye to my little legend. i never expect to have another car that is as wonderful as this one...but its really time for it to go. the car went from starting up on its own just fine, to COMPLETLY DEAD in 5 hours. i dont know what the deal is. but ive been thinking about it for so long...but this time is for real. i love that car so much. i cant stand it that im actually not going to have it anymore.

come see the incredible expanding woman
watch and be amazed as she defies inches and sizes
is there no limit to this marvel

im one step behind her
carrying my knitting bag
and god knows how many extra pounds
6 inches of water soak up my pant legs
still afraid to leave
but hes right across the lawn
i try and i fail
makeup straight hair cute outfit
doesnt make a difference
blinds are shut
to the window and all that is out there

the easy thing to do would be to stay here. i can be fine with that. for now.
i dont even think i can technically qualify as a transfer student if i dont have at least a certain number of credits and im pretty sure i dont have enough. i dont know what is in charge of my decisions anymore, but i think if i leave here right now...i'll regret it. its like the end of high school again if i do. there are people that i would have liked to have gotten to know, but i am too scared to just outright go up to them. im determined that something will happen to make it possible for me to be friends with some of these people. i will always have a connection to the people i graduated high school with, but if i leave mankato right now...its highly likely that i will never ever see some of these people again.
i cant define my life with decisions made as a result of guilt...but there is something else. even if i do end up leaving mankato, at least i gave it a shot...at least i will be sure that i made the right choice. leaving at the end of this week would always leave me wondering.
so i think i made my decision...not because its easier, but for now, its just what i have to do.

4 days.

I need help.

miserable with decisions.
if i decide to leave mankato, and i want to recieve a full tuition refund, i need to decide by this friday.
otherwise my parents will lose money and i'll feel terrible.
i dont really care that i am here. it bites but i can deal with it.
i doubt i will find a program of study that agrees with me as much as i feel vet tech does.
sitting here for the next semester wont help me. these credits wont transfer. even a bigger waste of money.
a big waste of time, of my life, of effort.
i have 5 days.

i think i want to be a veterinary technician. :)
problem is, the school i want to go to for this is in HUTCHISON.
thats over an hour away.
did you know that there are only 2 schools in the whole state of minnesota that offer a program in vet tech? one of them is globe college which is way too expensive and i promised myself i wouldnt go to a school that has a website that ends in .com instead of .edu. just isnt right.
so...hutchinson?

it will be there forever.
why not put more thought into it beyond pointing to it on the wall.
you know they put those there to lure fresh off the grill 18 year olds in.
come on.

3 days until i have to pack my things back up again and transfer my life back to mankato. gross gross gross
my mom even told me that if i left mankato that she would be disappointed. i thought that perhaps she would understand since she transferred after one year of college. i dont see what difference it makes to her. shes only visited me 2 or 3 times at my dorm.
what made me choose this path?
i popped the bead out of my cbr in my tragus. i cant get it back in. i cant go to saint sabrinas and have them fix it for me because i am broke. i cant believe my one month vacation is almost over. i cant believe my little sister is in high school and i am not. i cant believe i am still fixated on high school. i cant believe i gained 10 pounds in two weeks.
i dont know where im going...i dont know who i am...i dont know what i want.
except that i do want this piece of shit bead to go back where it belongs.

thank you for the kind offer to help me get to like mankato. i want to take you up on it...but something tells me that ive already made my decision. i would like to feel at home in mankato, but im afraid of liking it. ive always had to be torn between two homes, i dont want to make it three. this decision is so unnessesary. i introduced it, i dug myself into a hole. people on both sides waiting for my announcement...ill have to disappoint somebody. this semester is what decides it. i wish i had been aware of my priorities a short year ago. its so obvious to me now that the best idea for me would be to stay home...but a year ago i didnt believe it was so. i had my adventure, i had my "essential" dorm experience. i could have lived without it. i will still take you up on your offer though.

a new piercing makes me smile. especially since the piercer liked it so much that she took 2 pictures of my ear that might be in her portfolio or on the website!!

but smiling too much makes it hurt a little bit.