i changed my mind. now i want a (what generation is it? well, 2 generations ago anyway) 94-96 accord. doesnt matter how many doors. stick shift. EX trim level. shit yeah

my grandpa died 29 years ago today. hey thats like a golden birthday. except not exactly a birthday. i obviously never met him and my family never talks about him so im like is this a conspiracy? i didnt even know what he looked like until i found some pictures in my dads scrapbook a month ago. he looks exactly like my uncle. they are the same person. i hate to ask my grandma to tell me about him because she remarried my grandpa not long after and i consider him my real grandpa and i dont want to hurt his feelings but inquiring about my "real" grandpa. i dont know if it would or not.

i went to papa murphys yesterday and when i was there i remembered how much i miss working there. it smells so good in there and its such a nice place to work!! and its so tasty!

http://www.carsoup.com/usedvehicles/detail.asp?UVID=1164735&MinYear=1990&MaxYear=2003&Moto=False&searchID=1&CDSID=0&VehicleTypeID=1&DealerID=112

i dont know how long this link will last but look at it while you can
nobody ever has anything bad to say about acuras
not even me with my shit hole car.

ive decided that my next vehicle will be a 91 acura integra. or any second generation integra i dont really care. dont know when that will happen though. i was thinking...ok, maybe ill get a volkswagen because i found a bunch of jettas for sorta cheap but then i read some owner reviews and a lot of people said they were shit. plus the kind of people who lust over jettas and have them are...eh. i only considered going vw after my searches for nice japanese cars had little results...so then i went back to look at acuras and i found the most perfect 91 integra. i know its not still going to be for sale when i decide to actually get it but its a nice place to start. i only write about the really important issues

how is it that all the other girls on my floor seem to know eachother so well already. if i didnt know any better i would say that they have known eachother for years. my roommate has managed to hook up with 2 guys already. a couple of those transactions took place while she was smashed and if i wanted to, i could probably go that route.
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ive got cars on the brain. maybe thats because my car is going to hell. the passenger door doesnt think that its shut even though it is. my brothers friends kicked the sensor off. my driver side lock doesnt respond to the key or the power locks. its practially rusted through in some places. it overheats and i couldnt tell you why. i wish myself good luck when i try to sell this thing. who knows when that will be though. i just hope it doesnt bottom out any time soon. as soon as i sell it though im going to feel guilty.

is it just me or does nobody think that sex is a big deal? or pretty much anything sexual at all. my roommate and i compared lists of how many guys we have kissed the other day. me-well i didnt even have to get out a pen and paper because there isnt a list. theres only 1 person. her-i think she stopped at 17. SEVENTEEN! i mean i know that kissing is hardly a big deal to most people...but she couldnt have even really liked some of those guys. then she put a little astericks next to the guys shed done more than kissing with...i saw a lot of stars. this guy she just started hanging out with the other weekend just got a star next to his name last night. im not saying shes a whore or anything like that...maybe im just way on the other side of the spectrum...but whats wrong with thinking that you should really love someone before you start rounding the bases. i sound like a really big fuckin prude but i dont think im that bad.

i drank today. teehee

i know im in college and all, and everyone around me drinks, but i just cant bring myself to do it. the idea that the only thing someone can look forward to doing at the end of the day is to guzzle their cares away totally turns me off. isnt there anything else better to do? the thought of passing out, or not remembering what i did the next day just freaks me out, so i guess id rather be a loser. sitting in my dorm on a saturday night when most of my hall mates have gone elsewhere to get inebriated. i dont mind it though. i get to watch the terminator and eat easy mac.

can guys and girls seriously be friends with no romantic feelings getting in the way? i myself have always had a hard time seperating the two, but when im with him, i wonder if he sees anything in me. at all. maybe hes just better at it than i am. maybe he just doesnt care. i know the only way to find out is to just talk about it...but thats just as hard.

man what a crazy ride home!

IT CAN'T BE BARGAINED WITH...IT CAN'T BE REASONED WITH...IT DOESN'T FEEL PITY, OR REMORSE, OR FEAR...AND IT ABSOLUTLY WILL NOT STOP...EVER! UNTIL YOU ARE DEAD!

I LOVE THE TERMINATOR SO MUCH!
but not terminator 3, that movie was the worst garbage i have ever seen. what a load of horse shit.

home will never feel as good as it used to. i used to sit during school and just day dream about getting home and turning the heater on in my room and just laying in there for the rest of the evening. i am going home this weekend and i dont know how to anticipate it. when i was there for one night a couple of weeks ago it felt strange. most of the things i cherish the most were removed from my room because i took them along to college with me. when i was there i just kept thinking about all the easy mac i had in my dorm and the fact that we didnt have any at home. when i got back to my dorm, i was almost relieved. how can this shoebox be my home? of course its good that im adapting to this place, but i shouldnt get too attached to it because its not really mine or anything. i'll forever be in a limbo of homes.

being a senior in high school is made out to be the best year of your life. on shows like that 70s show, they want to keep the characters being 17 and seniors for as long as possible. you have all the fun responsibilities and very few of the not so fun ones. today officially marked me not being a senior anymore. a new senior class entered the halls of my high school this morning and took over. i mean, i have officially not been a senior since i walked across the stage and recieved my diploma 3 months ago, but now its for certain that i cant go back. new people have taken my place and its someone elses turn to live the most fun year ever. it must suck getting old. you watch all the people below you experience lifes great moments and you can only think that you have already had that, and most likely can never have it again. not that im not enjoying college life. it is tons of fun, but i guess im still in mourning of the loss of my senior year. today we pumped up the baby got back and butt danced on chairs in front of our window. im not sure if anyone saw but it was still funny. and then we ordered a pizza and didnt know that they call you when they get there so they can bring it to your room. we thought we had to meet the guy in the lobby so thats what we did and he was like, i almost didnt bring this here. yeah im not a freshman. i cant even order a pizza right! i like it here, but it can never be senior year again thats for sure.