trying to hold my imaginary man...nobody seems to fit in my mind. i desperatly want to fill in the blank. but i thought i didnt care about that sort of stuff...is it possible that i really havent met him yet? i almost feel that i have met my capacity of new people. maybe im just not willing to accept new people. once you get into something with someone, it inevitably has to end badly...either in breaking up, losing touch...or death i guess. hopefully he isnt here...im not really myself lately