i cant deny this wall...the one that i built. i dont recall wanting to build it, when i started, or when i finished...but its there. i must not have done a good job on it because you seep through the cracks at times. should i fill them in? or make them bigger? these complications you cannot see from the other side, but i cannot see yours either. i dont know what will be there if i tear it down, or if ill want to put another one up. but this one is showing signs of age. maybe im not ready. maybe you arent either. maybe you want me to leave it up. eventually it must be addressed...