today is one of those days
i feel completley alone so i scour my mind for who i can go to
and come up so blank

ive either alienanted them
or i never let them in

they dont know me anymore
or they never did

im so excited to go home for thanksgiving
but im pressing for these next 2 weeks to fly by
and there is so much work to do in between
and even more to do afterwards

im sick to my stomach
i cant register because my financial aid hasnt come through yet
my classes are going to be full

i cant communicate
i cant open up
i dont know whats wrong with me