im really amused by the cycle that a lot of people my age are entering in to.

first your parents have you when they are relatively young, and then they are constantly trying to get their shit together so they can give you the best.

so by the time you hit about 15-16, they have pretty much settled into a fairly comfortable life, and you probably dont have too many things to complain about. chances are, you are living in a decent house in the suburbs with some pets and you might even have a car too. youre fairly free to do as you wish and you get to stay in this house and do your laundry for free!

and they probably pay for your damn cable too.

then fast forward a few years and the great thing to do is move out! it sounds so very enticing. you can do what you want, be your own boss, make your own rules.

it pretty much sucks though. i go from a nice, centrally air-conditioned house with ceramic tile and a very nice yard to THIS. a shitty 2 bedroom apartment with a window air conditioner that only cools the living room effectively, bargain basement carpet and linoleum. im pilfering someones internet, and i have no cable. my bathtub is pink. i cant have a dog, there is petrified beef in my fridge...and im paying for this!!

and this is as good as its going to get for now. i pretty much can never go back home...well i can physically drive back to my house and sleep there, but i dont really know if i will ever actually RESIDE there again. im sure i will but i dont know when. and if that ever happens it will probably be because i fucked something up in my life and i dont want to wait for that catastrope. it will never be the same. i just have to sit and wait until ive gotten my shit together and can get my own house with ceramic tile and a yard. i cant wait that long.