puke

girl at work: so do you work tomorrow?
me: nope!
gaw: me neither! wont it be great to sleep in?
me: yeah except my dads going wake my ass up for church at 9:30 tomorrow morning
gaw: oh yeah? just your dad? your mom doesnt go?
me: oh, no...my parents are divorced, i just go to my dads every other weekend
gaw: STILL?


yeah...still. i know its time...i know it doesnt make sense anymore...i know ive been trying to end this situation since it started...but how on earth do you tell your dad that you dont want to come live with him anymore? i dont feel like i have a good enough reason. the reasons i have are all purely selfish. i dont know what to do...i live by example and i dont know anyone in the same pickle as me...and there arent any fun nick at nite shows about this either. if i allow this to continue, im not asserting myself, im not being an adult about it. if i try to change it, im being selfish, and therefore, childish.