maybe what i should have said is...


i hate how incapable i am at breaking down the barriers, putting down my wall, and forming the real, deep connections that i need and want so badly, with almost everyone i know.

i hate how everyone else seems so well adjusted and happy, and i feel like i am missing something. actually i know i am missing something, i just dont know what.

i hate what i said and there is no excuse for it.