i want to lose weight...but what if after i do...

people are still rude to me
i still get ignored
people are still mean
i am still ugly
i am still unhappy

then i have nothing to blame it on. being fat is a crutch. if things arent going my way then i can say fuck all the assholes who judge fat people. i can think...theres nothing wrong with me besides being fat, people just dont give me a chance because of that. maybe thats not the case. maybe i just suck.