fargo

ive come to the conclusion that no matter where i go, it will always be the same. i will always be homesick. probably because i will never be willing to be happy in a new place. i cant betray my home, or the people there. if im happy here, then what? am i going to stay? how hard will it be for me to leave in the summer? i dont think i want to be homesick for two places. i thought i would be happier in fargo simply because its a bigger city, more similar to home...but its not the size of the city or how much fun stuff is in it...its the people in the city. so time to put on the shield again...to fun, to friends, to any emotion at all.