paper due in 5 hours. have i started? not really. am i worried? not so much. i wonder now if i could all together stop drinking if i wanted to. i havent exactly been around the block...but i shudder to think that i could become dependant. i always told myself that addictions outside of my chosen one-food, are useless. you dont NEED alcohol. you dont NEED tobacco...and the list goes on. you can stop just by completely eliminating all temptation. you cant just quit eating. well you can, but not for long. will my thoughts of, "i cant wait to get home and have some soup" be replaced with, "i cant wait to get out and have a beer?" hopefully not. i am not a changed person because of the decisions i have made to incorperate new things into my life. if there is a time to try new things, the time is now. that doesnt mean that my personality has altered...or that i still dont value the same things. but its time to grow up a little bit and acknowledge that these sorts of things are around us, and sometimes, it doesnt hurt to join in...sometimes, it actually helps.