I really like being one of the guys, but maybe not this much. I'm not sure how i got so accepted into the male community, but somehow, yesterday, my buddy pretty much threw the notion that "oh yeah, shes still a girl" out the window. Forgetting that, even though we spent an enormous amount of time together this summer in a very platonic way, and even though i have never mentioned it before, that maybe...just maybe there is the possibility that i have feelings for him. With this new knowledge he so kindly bestowed upon me i now know that he didnt like me before, he doesnt like me right now, and if he had...hes the kind of guy who would have just asked me out. So all those thoughts i had of, maybe hes just shy, maybe hes scared to hurt our friendship...were just garbage. i should have expected this...it actually comes as no surprise...but to hear the words (or in my case, read them) makes it hit you harder than pretty much anything else. I dont know when i became his #1 buddy to confide in. its certainly not a bad position...but if you just let me check here....yup, just as i thought. still no penis.